An angel, a sign, all in a Deal's checkout line...

Was it the first sign though?



Tonight I was scrambling through Deal's, a type of discount store in my neighborhood that's similiar to a dollar store although eveything is not priced a dollar, looking for some decorations for my upcoming book signing. I had a pretty hectic day the moment I realized that this book signing is really real and is really happening in just two days.The feeling of anxiety seemed misplaced, I had calmed down significantly since 5pm, yet the pressure to do my very best seemed overwhelming. Thank goodness that my partner helped me along the way sorting out my thoughts. It seemed once we started collecting the items all my emotions were much less intense. We made it to the check out line and the cashier swiped and bagged my items. She asked. "You having a purple and black party?" I responded. "No actually it's for a book signing." The cashier seemed intrigued by my response and maybe it's not everyday that someone is that open about how they will use the items purchased or....maybe ringing up a writer was intriguing. The unusal thing about this interaction is that I am not usually open to interact with someone I don't know especially without first seeing them without them seeing me. I like a moment to observe before diving in.

Then it happened...

The cashier asked. "Why don't you slide me one of those books? I will read it." Now in my mind I'm like hold up, quickly thinking about the price of my book, the fact that I had exactly 30 copies estimated for the event, you know a nice even number, that I had of course mentally split up in my head determining which ones will have cds and which will not, and some free ones to give away in the raffle. All of the thoughts were shattered with one realization of the fact that this cashier who doesn't know me wants to read my book of course she should have a free one. I am such a head case at times lol. I introduce myself as I swipe my card to pay and the cashier tells me her name is Angel.

Parking lot shuffle...

So taken aback by the interest and request of the cashier I told my partner that I would take the bags to the car and come back and help her with her bags without realizing that my partner was going to end up with only one bag. I head to my car and grab the book and run into the store to give Angel a copy. Back in the car my partner tells me I should've invited Angel to the book signing, of course I should. Why didn't I think of that? I guess that's why they are called the better half. I didn't have a business card on me and would you believe the writer had no pen. The situation was starting to go left, ha, had to laugh at that I'm watching Jersey Shore as I type. 

Stores closing....

Back in Deal's I ask Angel for a pen to sign her book she asked me if it was the first sign and I said yes which technically was true and not so true. People that bought In My Write Mind online when it first came out and requested a signature received one however this was still "a first sign" from the shipment I received for the signing but to be totally honest none of it matters because I signed the book and wrote a message "Here's to the first sign."

 Was it the first sign though?

I think so. See I had been a lil more than concerned about the upcoming event because I like to visualize from start to finish and maybe its over preparing but I have a need to account for every minute of the event and what I am going to do etc. see there I go thinking at 5 angles lord help me. The Lord did help me though because I was just balling at my mother's house because I felt like I had way more to do then the time I had to do it. I'm sure you've been there. I had talked to God about this just sharing my thoughts and feelings and desires to do my best I don't even know if I asked God anything other than just speaking out loud but in a way I felt that my anxiety over the event was calmed when I met a cashier named Angel who interacted with me for a brief moment. I asked her to please comment on Amazon in return for the book and she agreed. I find myself always looking for signs from God today I felt like I found one and it's telling me to move forward and to not let fear get in the way of me reaching the destination God has planned for me.